coming out ... again

last night I finally got up the courage to go to Chestnut and Squirrel in Shibuya and "come out" to the Tokyo lesbian community. I have tried several times to find someone either through personal ads or dating websites, but I have now gone back to the tried and true girl-bar method. I was so scared. I tried to socialize, but ended up at a table of western girls. I am really regretting that I did not get over my fear and just introduce myself to some of the Japanese girls that I liked. But I want to go back next week. It is amazing how much this feels like dating for the first time or coming out for the first time. 90% of the girls are in their twenties, but I knew that before I went. It is also amazing how much it is all coming back. I wish it wasn't just open once a week. But I am already looking forward to next week. This is cool.