looking back

In general I always try to live my life in the present as much as possible. It is something I learned from yoga and from one of my best friends from uni.

When we live too much in the future, there is a tendency to be unhappy with what we have and always reach for things that may be unattainable. But future is where our dreams live and we can not live without dreams. It is where the creative spark for music and art lives.

When we live too much in the past, there is a huge tendency to crave what was "lost". Past events become nicer and more perfect and the present and future always tends to appear bleak and hard. The classic "back in the old days" sort of personality. But without our past we have no raw material, no experience which we need in order to feed our creativity.

But looking back can be so wonderful sometimes when we are happy in our present. It can offer a wonder contrast to help us see how we got here, and maybe appreciate even more what we have.

As I am being inspired by my dearest friend to write more blog entries, I am also going back and reading what I wrote. Amazing, this blog is 8 years old, but so few posts and so few readers. But really I am more a musician at heart.

What struck me today was the huge difference between my England years (2004 to 2006)and my Japan years (2007 on). I only had 6 posts in my pre-Japan time, and over 50 posts after starting my Japan journey. I guess Japan is my Muse, my inspiration, my touchstone. And maybe that is why I am finally able to let my inner artist/musician/dj grow here.

A seed needs fertile soil to grow. And I am certain, without doubt, that Tokyo is my soil.