Walking this new path

It has been several months now since I seriously started DJing in Tokyo. It is going really well but it has it's ups and downs. I guess with any new thing there is a lot of learning, but it really is trial by fire with DJing. There always seems to be something to learn each time I get to a different club. Sometimes it can really throw me. But I am still entertaining people, I am still getting new gigs, and I am still loving it (even when I have an off night). I do think I need to slow down a bit. Learning one's limits, as with anything in life. We stretch, we stumble, we pull back a little, we settle down, we stretch... Classic 2 steps forward, 1 step back.

I don't know why, but what I can do at home is better than what I can do in a lounge setting which is better than what I can do on a bigger stage. There are some small technical differences (which can throw me), but I am certain most of it is confidence. With art/music, it has to come from a place of emotion and without being calm and loving it, the performance is diminished a little.

I can also see why many artists need day jobs, or why some artists end up settling at a certain level. There needs to be a hunger there to drive us through these trials. And until we are confident at that next level, we need a place to fall back to.

And during all this I feel like my heart is starting to opening up again. Doing this requires support from friends and fans. What an amazing feeling to have dear friends support you in your dreams.